Understanding a Paranoid Schizophrenic

Getting into the mind of a paranoid schizophrenic is not a safe road to travel on because you will enter a world of twisted unorganized thoughts and a total disconnect from reality. Trying to reason with a paranoid schizophrenic is nearly impossible because you're not just trying to instill logic where there is none, you're also competing with a voice within who will challenge you with even more unorganized thoughts that leaves you feeling dumber more than you can ever imagine yourself feeling meanwhile scratching your head because you don't know what just transpired. You've always thought the person was odd and dismissed it as it is just the way they are but with each passing conversation into a schizophrenic mind leaves walking away again each time more dumbfounded than the last. There comes a point where you come to a conclusion that something is seriously not right. The patterns of behavior also become more twisted and questionable. You wonder why this person is turning the radio up so loud that it sounds like the speakers are about to burst, meanwhile hearing stomping against the floor. You wonder why it sounds like this person is having a full blown conversation with someone and you walk into their room to ask who they are talking too only to find out they were never on the phone. The look in their eyes become the most disturbing because it starts to become obvious, that person you grew up with is no longer there and all they left was a shell of themselves. I never knew looking into someone's eyes can tell so much of that person but it was obvious that it's not that hard to tell because once it's gone, you can almost see the emptiness where that person's soul once was. I know the way I make it sound is dire but it is the absolute truth.

The mental twist that this person went through from year one to year two was absolutely fascinating from an observer standpoint but from a loved one stand point, it was painful to watch and left me shaking my head many times. Having to witness the gentle, sweet person my brother was to this one step from a demon like personality was dreadful. On top of all that, my brother ended up being the paranoid schizophrenic type which is worst because now this person not just went from sane to crazy but also to not trusting anyone. Those he didn't trust were demons to him. He claimed to be Jesus Christ and added the paranoia that people were after him and the government was out to destroy him because only he had the power the knowledge they wanted that would change the world. How his information would change anything is still the mystery today. That's how he thought though and that's how he felt and there was no way to talk him out of it, that's how his mind interpreted reality. The brain is an amazing thing and holds power none of us can ever imagine. One neuron in his brain malfunctions or is not transferring something the way it should can cause all these personality changes. He became overly violent but never hurt anyone but he scared us a lot with his behavior. My parents for almost a year feared for their lives because he lives with them. Can you imagine being woken up at 3 in the morning with him punching the wall or screaming or whatever else. That part is now behind us and hopefully never having to go down that road again. It was hard to understand his psyche but after having experience it first hand, we do have a better understanding, next stop a cure which I am afraid may never happen.